Universal Families

Hey Lightworkers,

Second day of blogging and as I have been venturing into sending out invitations, I wish to say something about you joining yet another space to unite with me.

I often become lost as to what to call this experience we are all in, especially the aspect where I have chosen a role to facilitate spaces for all of us to unite, to share and to learn. I don’t like the elitist view that I am a leader, although on one level I know this is a truth. Yet in another light words can be problematic and terms such as these can create a type of spiritual hierarchy because in essence we are all leaders. However additionally I have to recognise my responsibility which derives from the plain fact that there is a physical experience being played out, where I appear to be a strong influence at the head of what I deem a large and ever-growing group of people.

My latest feelings are that this is much like a family. I guess I could be playing the role of mother or father and as with any family I am keen to set healthy boundaries and offer guidance as and when needed through the group journeys. I feel we each play this role, and you are equally the parents as you take back your insights and knowledge and filter this down to other symbolic children of yours. I feel this is actually how the universe works.

Of course this means I am also a child and have parents which I learn from, which can be seen as higher powers, people who I go to learn from and again filter this information down to those who choose to learn with me. In this light I find a warm and nurturing sense to understanding my role or experience as our family group grows.

I was hoping this blog could welcome all members of our family who have travelled with me and us, some who have been having exciting  journeys elsewhere and some who are more familiar in the physical sense at this time. To me it has always felt paramount that I never portray exclusive rights or demands on any person who visits me and our group, which is of course not set in stone and which ebbs like a river or a sea, with people moving in and out of physical presence all the time. This is the totally natural flow of life and I appreciate the beauty of this.

I am still fascinated how people gravitate to my energy and am over-joyed and humbled by the individual choice to come and be part of an event. This is because I know it is beyond me, it is a calling of the higher Self and I continue to work with my responsibility with being a channel for this divine energy. Additionally I have to work hard with reminding myself I am allowed to be human, with boundaries and personal space and the implementing of my own needs for nurturing. This is a continual balancing act.

So in simple terms, I welcome you to this blog as my soul family member and give thanks for your presence yet again.

I also wish to share the beautiful picture which was taken at the 11.11.11 Event and I am sure you will feel the loving energy flowing from the group

Ascension Symptoms?

Some Insights I wrote at the beginning of the year, which is now coming to a close and can be of interest to review.

Originally Written March 2011

Ascension Your Developing World View / How You Perceive Reality 

I feel we can all see the changes and transformations so hugely in our lives right now, we are literally whizzing into the new earth energies so much that if we become pulled into the old earth drama and existence, the earth which is crumbling and breaking down limitations and dark energy, we can become quite confused and lost.This is our chance to sit with ourselves, and do our inner work. We are shedding at lightning speed and the human ego is so at a loss because there really is no logical answer to explain how reality is beginning to look and feel for you currently. The way I like to explain it is like a new style television with HD. I don’t own a television, so I noticed something interesting when I did watch the new HD feature at a friend’s home the other day. Because I had never seen this new mode of viewing, I could not believe how unlike a film it appeared to me, it was like watching life. It felt too real almost and I realised my brain had associated a certain reality with television and films which were more like a flat kind of view reality and here all of a sudden, I was being presented with this new odd HD vision on a box and it was quite disconcerting for my mind to try to perceive. This is because it was new and my brain registers my reality with certain known features and frequencies.

I share this because what my intuition suggested following this was that this is situation is what we are all now facing when we view the reality of our lives! I am aware we are living in a holographic universe and have been aware of the many dimensions and worlds of spirit that exist in terms of the whole, however, when we actually begin to physically witness or feel these very effects in how we view our very reality, it can be very unsettling at first. After all we are living the game or the television so when we realise this the need for a television can seem quite odd, it is like we are in a box watching a box. This is why it is happening very slowly for us all, although it appears quick. If it were to happen in one instant we would probably die of shock, perhaps much like putting a new fish in a cold water tank or an animal in a new habitat. This process is done slowly and with care because otherwise the chance of danger brought to the animal is higher.

However what I do feel and which I will add to this is, we do not have such a luxury where time is concerned as linear time is indeed running out, so for those new to awakening this will be a bigger shock than those who have been walking this path for decades or many years. Their work was to lay the foundations and those awakening now may have the difficulty in riding the shock to the system. Although this also has the advantage which is much like the pulling of the plaster quickly effect, it is done in one foul swoop and you will be brought through speedily.

As each person is brought up to speed, literally, because we must move to the new frequency, we help others move along the bridge. It is wildfire, it is contagious, it is like a domino effect and it is totally amazing to be a part of again! I have travelled this road many times assisting with ascension on other planets and I know that when we get to the point we are in now, all your old memories start to kick in to suggest, “oh it is this again, I’ve done this before”. Many of us are system busters and ascension leaders and this is the great bit we have been waiting for!

I feel it may help to offer some short statements about what it can feel like living in the new earth frequencies right now as we are all moving into these and have been largely doing this since the gateway opened end 2010. I can only offer insights and channelings from my perspective as you know, use what resonates.

You may experience the following:

Experiencing feelings of floating, becoming invisible, losing touch with yourself and whole being, mainly when in public places and especially in dense energy where old earth energy is still operating.Experiencing feelings of incredible lightness and lack of grounding at times

Memory loss, or not being able to account for what you have been doing yesterday and suddenly waking up in a new moment. If you were to think about what you did earlier in the day it seems like days ago

Feeling anxiety when around people or places that hold a different frequency to you, i.e. a denser vibration

Feeling very tired if you are having to go into situations that are not your frequency and losing energy quickly, getting drained.

Extremes of happiness and high aspiration and peace, unity, and sadness, apathy, feeling lost or struggling

Hearing your intuition and heart guidance very loudly, and feeling harder to go against your inner voice, if you have been doing this, it will be less easy to turn a blind eye.

Feeling that you have to be yourself despite increased doubt

Many lifestyle changes, changing people you have around you, places, homes, areas, relationships and work

Food changes, won’t be able to sustain eating dense low energy foods, there is a step-ladder style aspect which happens with foods. First to go is usually red meat, then other meat, processed, chemical or packet foods, then fish, eggs, then cheese then cooked foods are harder to handle until light raw foods, seeds, nuts pulses and beans and lentils are becoming your staple diet

Health problems will occur when you are holding onto anything or have become un-centred outside of your higher self

Sleeping moving to your own patterns / body clock if you don’t already

If you have a job, (employed) and certain daily responsibilities you will be finding it harder to keep up with fitting what you used to in and many of your “should’s” will slip away

You will find, if you are not doing something for service that you enjoy or that you are unhappy or unhealed inside you will become largely apathetic and empty quicker, which is a prompt for you to turn inside.

I suggest at this time, simplicity, inner work, be close to nature, become introspective and spend time alone if possible, or in reflection and observation which we can do all the time and with family life! Don’t hide completely, seek balance, the middle road, the adult who is strong and the inner child for joy and parent for nurturing. Trust your heart, let the feelings flow, and surrender when you feel fear. Get a routine and get grounded as much as you can, but grounding to the new earth is naturally a higher vibration so this can be confusing. You will be less connected to physicality but more present.

Reviewing Our Journey – Loving the Past Us

Today I’ve been looking through my old creative writing files and I have been quite astonished at some of my material that I had recorded through-out my path of transformation which has moved me to continue healing psychologically in addition to inviting me to explore the world of spirit.

I have tended to be harsh and judging of my past innocence and my youth, full of ego, fear and arrogant will. Yet I am learning to be softer as I nurture myself and understand that I can not expect my past self to have the awareness that the self I am in the now has. Loving who we were in addition to who we are in the moment is important I am learning. Often we can hold feelings of embarrassment, foolishness, and anger at things we did or ideas we held in the past but these very moments were the material which offered us the crucial seeds to work with and go on to grow in ever-increasing ways.

In light of my continuing desire to love not just who I am in the unfolding moment, but who I was in innocence, brimming with will and well-meaning eagerness, I am sharing this un-edited entry below, which I wrote toward the beginning of my significant entry into the path of healing and seeking. As we love all aspects of ourselves we create greater love for ourselves in the Now.

 

Written early 2007

Spiritual Journeys

“If I was to say hello to you today, I would probably say it in a most apprehensive enclosed fashion, whilst shuffling my feet and swinging my body side to side with my head lolled forward so that my chin was resting on my chest. Like the wounded child within I would sulkily shrug my emotionless actions, forcing my adult self to unwillingly express herself in a resistant and forlorn greeting! Although of course this is the ideal, what I would do in reality would represent more of a bold jump into your space, with a gleaming smile, offering a big love filled “HI”!

I’ve had enough of putting on a brave face, thinking of the positives, doing the right thing, understanding the meaning behind it all, turning the situation round, taking the spiritual route, looking at the bigger picture, staying on the path and I want to say NO to the whole crappy lot.

Why can’t I hide from the truth? Settle into the illusions? Let my fear drive me? Live a facade? Have some earthly fun? Be a selfish? Ignore my intuition? Want material success? Opt for just what I can see not what my deepest unconscious suggests? Desire desire for desires sake? Be part of the tribal group again? Choose to fit in and be part of the bullshit?

I can’t because I can’t un-see it! I can’t deny the truth, I can’t re-invent oblivion, and I can’t ignore wrong choices or go against my soul. My spirit won’t let me get half way and give up; my higher self won’t allow the self harm of living a life of lie after lie. I would go more insane should I drop the battle mid fight then to struggle to the end through torturous awakenings.

In one of the salvation posing books I read, someone once said….”better not begin, once begun, better finish!” I couldn’t have summed it up better myself!

I have come to learn the spiritual path is not for the faint-hearted. Not indeed if you are fully committed. So we read bestsellers such as the Celestine Prophecy that allow us to focus lightly on the spiritual undertones behind the fiction and we dabble into writers such as Doreen Virtue for help about knowing our angels but where does it discuss the pain? Where does the warning label appear? It should read “Once you have begun you can’t turn back!” or “There are no half measures to God”. In truth, I guess we wouldn’t venture outside our box reality if this was the case. That is why we get there by a helping prod from a friend that seems to make too much sense to be crazy or a mystical happening that couldn’t be put down to coincidence. However we enter the path one thing is for sure it will lead to wonder, magic, ecstasy, sense, and completion. However what of the journey? 

            Well I arrived in pain! I would say I have been travelling the spiritual path for around two years now. Before then my eyes where open yet not seeing. I was walking around aimlessly not knowing any other way or reason for being. Filling my life with the unimportant, the trivial, illusionary matters that we all place so much importance on. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that the relationship you have, the job you do, money you earn or the house you own is unimportant. They are of great importance, but much like a teacher to a school, they are our way of learning, a place to live out all our lessons. If we give these tools too much power they control our health and our spirits. It is the greater power inside us that holds the key to our purpose, that answers those deep and searching questions you find hard to answer and in most cases dismiss.

By learning about who we are inside and strengthening our inner self we would have more happiness than the world’s richest person. To do this we need not travel the world or create a high-flying career, we could do all of this yet not understand why we keep meeting those awful men or why we can never hold onto our money long enough. We need to travel only our mind, our soul. In the comfort of your arm-chair you could find yourself just as easily as backpacking for years around Asia.

You just need to be prepared to go into the place you are most used to ignoring, the place where you hear that tiny voice trying to speak up above the bellow of the responsibilities, the holler of the unrealistic, the trill of the fear and listen for once. Clear your mind of the daily turmoil’s like what to make for dinner, what to feed the children, who to call and listen instead. Something will be guiding you but you’ve just become so used to covering your ears because you don’t necessarily want to do what it’s suggesting or you find it impossible to consider. Well I have one word of advice. If you don’t respond it will happen anyway, sooner or later.

 You have no control, I have no control, and we just like to think we do! Once we let go of that realisation and prepare to be guided life can be simpler, not easier, and not more comfortable but you may find peace that you have always been searching for. I want to tell you though, because as a rule people don’t, of the pain. There is likely to be much fear and perhaps a sense of madness but what would you rather? A reality that is false and sustained by the afraid or a world where you felt highs like you didn’t know existed. You can experience the puzzle gradually piecing together quietly in front of your eyes, silently in an unspoken language you could make sense of that which you knew not where to start before, or you could continue to live in a place where oblivion will always be a stab in your side, the laughing face behind your problems. Lift the veil, look into yourself and don’t blame others, forgive all people and judge a lot less. When something goes unexpectedly or you find yourself in pain, ask why? What are you being shown? Reach out and ask for help. You will always be answered but you need to look in the right way to see it!”

Can we love our wounded inner child, our angry adolescent teenager, our fresh-faced and naive spiritual seeker, the times of being the zealot and the know-it-all and the times of being broken, bewildered and unaware?  Loving all fragments of us and where we have been brings peace to us as we love our entire journey.

 

 

 

Poem from the Past

There’s only One

Tick Tock the clock won’t stop

Where time fails to exist the answers lie,

Waiting to be uncovered

To aid the rescue.

What trap was set for us?

Marvellous intricate labyrinth;

The game of free will

Awakening to something that was always there

A possible introduction to our friend despair,

The place where moving is inevitable.

Change placed high on the menu

“We recommend the ever evolving buffet”

Remarks the friendly stranger.

To start or not to start,

Did I really have the decision to make?

To take it had to be a yes

A timid seemingly unimportant yes

Yes turning into no

Please no,

Too late, too late!

Buckets full of faith required

It should have been labelled,

People look at the tin more these days

Still they don’t see

Sight to make you take flight

Sky becomes clear,

Nature’s solitude

Leafy homecoming on earth

For now

Alone and surrounded

By millions of me’s

You and me

Same as the two,

United in silence

Like left and right

Only some have taken up the fight

Until we all will see

What few already do

We are waiting for you

Tick Tock come here beyond the clock

Instant Gratification and Long Awaited Results

On my list of huge “to do’s”, I have been meaning to get blogging for sometime. I know that this will be a great addition to the mailing list and newsletters and my inspirations coming live from Facebook, Twitter and YouTube. So what has stopped me up til now?

I guess this would be the sense that once I start I just won’t stop… 

I had assigned myself the goal of finishing the editing on my book and making way to finding a publisher in the next upcoming three months, before I began sending any new energy into the world of blogging, but hey, it seems my urge just cannot wait. Instead it appears I shall have to manage my energy in a number of places in order to funnel the creative blast of energy needed to complete my book and to satisfy my urge of communicating with the continual flow of spectacular lightworkers who join me in my journey. I simply have oodles and oodles to share about this world and our developing place in it.

Maybe you also have learned to think about how you use your energy, and which projects to take on and which need to come first?

I learned this about myself around a year ago, that an issue I have is not being short of energy or inspiration, but that learning how to focus on one project fully to the end and prioritize and ground my dreams was an important step in bringing creative gifts to fruition. I could spend hours getting involved in new ventures and if not vigilant will find my fingers in many pies but often, less is more as we keep learning. After all, it only takes a few minutes to set up a blog and begin reaching people and feeling satisfied in your achievement of finding a path for your creativity. It is so easy and therefore tempting, but it does not stretch you to reach higher.  To remain focused on completing a book, deep within is the road of the long haul. The results are not instant and it requires faith, stamina, dedication when no definite success is in sight. Although the singing of the heart continues to quietly pluck away at my soul, reminding me of this dream which has been with me since even before my birth. These are both the hardest to ignore and the hardest to fulfill.

I hope this blog can become a place where I can drop by to inspire, motivate, support, and share my insights with those who feel a kinship with my vibration. In addition know doubt this tool is for my own development to see my random, raw thoughts and feelings on a page, which is refreshingly not linked to the confines of the structural conformity of a book or the small and peripheral chitter chatter of social networking sites.

If you see me here too frequently however, can you remind me, I have a book to finish!